I've been trying to keep my mind occupied lately by doing different activities so as to avoid thinking about school in any way. It's becoming very ridiculous and I'm a little worried about this semesters outcome...definitely not Good Eats. Unfortunately, I've been in a constant boredom state for several days now where I can't seem to find anything fun and/or productive to do. I went out and sat on my balcony for 2 hours yesterday. Just sat there, listening to music, watching the rain fall down on the cars. Strangely, it was ever-so peaceful and very relaxing. It was a much needed break from the boring life I currently lead, and I didn't even have to go anywhere or spend money. Luckily, the government still lets rain be free.

I have also gotten back into a forgotten RPG game called "Eternal Sonata". It's a weird game based on composer Frederic Chopin's musical scores (it's based in Chopin's dream world). The game is filled with these imaginary characters and baddies that one must fight there way through to get to the final boss, in this case Chopin is his own boss, while they learn some important shit along the way. The story isn't terrible and the game play is that of any other RPG title so it's nothing breathtakingly new or original, other than the story I guess.

I've been playing Halo 3 a lot lately as well. Always a good and classic decision to play but it just gets old sometimes when I'm not playing with the usual team. Going solo into a team game with strangers is just horrifying sometimes. These people are just plain bad...some terrible even. Which sucks because it makes me loose interest in playing, which leaves me with nothing to do during the day => bored.

So really, I just need something to do. I make plans with people to go out, they fall through somehow and I'm back stuck at home. I just need something to break up the monotony.

Hot Damn, it's been awhile

So, it's been a pretty long time since I've talk about anything here. It's been a rough couple of weeks/months and shit has been hectic.

Few things going on:
*I'm broke as balls, but working on finding another job
*I realized that I need to pay a little more attention in class, so there's that
*I stopped playing WoW in an effort to keep my attention more focused on school
*I got my tongue pierced

So, being broke pretty much blows big donkey balls as there's a lot of shit that I want to go and do but can't. This sucks because I have no real way to relieve stress and get my mind off of school when it gets to be too much.

Bringing me to paying more attention in school... It's gotten so fucking ridiculous and over-complicated for no reason. Damn Econ professor making shit so much harder than necessary...bastard. And, with being broke, I don't really have anything to help me get my mind off of school. To help pay better attention, I stopped playing WoW so I can get more shit done during the day, but in that, I started playing Diablo II again and have also gotten back into Halo/XBox Live.

And I got my tongue pierced on Monday. I've always wanted one and while walking home from class on Monday, I couldn't think of a reason why I wouldn't want one. Then I began thinking about why i hadn't gone and gotten one yet, so I decided that Monday was the day. I REALLY like it and am so very glad I got it done. It didn't hurt too bad, but I have been eating pudding for 2 days now, which is getting old. I had some crackers and cookies this morning; they seemed to go down easy, so more solid foods will be appearing in the future I think.

Well, I've once again run out of motivation for the day. This was nothing insightful but it wasn't meant to be so, whatever.

Natural Claritin

I haven't slept in four days. Four. Whole. Days. You know what you can do with all 24 hours in a day? A lot actually, most of it completely unproductive, but still a lot of shit.

See, I play this game constantly, but the game isn't what keeps me awake; I just simple cannot sleep. I laid down on Tuesday and ended up staring at my ceiling for 3 hours while listening to Wolf Parade play on repeat. Wednesday morning, before my Embedded Systems class, I watched almost an entire season of "Dead Like Me". By the way, great fuckin' show but that's another time. Thursday morning, I finished my "Dead Like Me" mini marathon and then studied for an Economics test, which is going to royally blow penis AND balls. I don't think I need to remind anyone that it's never good when balls are involved...most of the time.

So, the question is, "Why can't I sleep anymore?" Believe you me, I've asked myself this question again and again. It kind of reminds of the movie "Cash Back" (also one of the greatest movies I've ever seen). I won't go into details, but the main character has chronic insomnia; one can relate. I do think about a lot of things during the day, but my head is generally clear at night as keeping things on your mind at night can lead to insomnia. So with my head clear and a good dinner with drinks in me, why have I not slept since last Sunday afternoon?